I just went through the longest night of my life. Yesterday, I noticed some symptoms that made me think of cancer, and I couldn’t sleep at all. My body had swollen lymph nodes and there was pain.
I kept thinking about how people who find out they have cancer often only have 1-3 months left to live, and that really scared me. I saw people chatting in the Airdrop group, but I couldn’t even bring myself to open my phone to check. I spent the whole night tossing and turning, waking up startled several times, just waiting for the morning to go to the hospital for cancer testing.
Maybe it’s because, since I started doing MMO, I’ve really been neglecting my health — staying up late, eating erratically, not exercising — so when I started having symptoms, I thought, “That’s it. I’m done.”
If something were to happen, I felt like I’d just pass out at the hospital. All night, I couldn’t stop thinking about my parents and loved ones, feeling like I hadn’t done enough for them yet. My heart raced, and my legs shook. I even thought about leaving behind my accounts and all the passwords to my wallets… to my family. I was still rational, but deep down, I was really scared and worried. For the first time in my life, I realized just how terrified I was of death.
When I went to the hospital, I was shocked by how many people were there for cancer checkups. There were so many people, and they were all young, just like me. They had been eating fast food, drinking sugary drinks, staying up late, and working too much without taking care of their health. It was terrifying. Some people had piles of cash to pay the hospital fees, and I couldn’t help but think about how much time they had spent working hard to earn that money, only to end up there. What’s the point of working so hard if we don’t take care of our health? I overheard someone say, “Oh, we’re used to it.” That hit me hard.
There was a young couple who looked like they had just gotten married. The husband looked miserable, and the wife was holding a test result, crying uncontrollably. I even heard people scream in anguish after getting their cancer results. It was heartbreaking.
Fortunately for me, the doctor said everything was fine. But for some of the others there with me, it wasn’t the same — one had a cyst, another had a benign tumor, and so on.
What I want to say to everyone is this: If you’re neglecting your health, it’s time to start taking it seriously. Money is meaningless when you’re gone. Pay attention to your health, eat well, and don’t push yourself too hard. Remember to get a cancer screening once a year.
We have so much to lose and so much to do. First and foremost: Stay healthy.
If you’ve read this far, I wish you good health and success!
